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On top of that doujin sale I think I’m gonna have a button sale as well because the saddest thing just happened where I went to the store and had to put everything back because I didn’t have enough to pay oops. ☺

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u_u Today is the day my third round of my hcg diet begins so I can be in somewhat of a decent size for my planned cosplays for Metrocon. If I can manage them…if not at least I’ll look and feel better in the ones I have.　

<sup>Goodbye spicy cheezits…

goodbye pancakes……..

goodbye taco bell……
we shall meet again in the future…….</sup> 

Me and Jessie just got back from Steak N’ Shake with Liz and on the way back to her place we blasted the cuppycake song with all of my windows down not giving a good god damn. On repeat.

So idk if anyone noticed but

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U: and now to be a trembling nervous wreck throughout the day or days even /scream　

Time to throw in the towel…I have a feeling I’m going to regret doing this while I’m completely aloof and numb to my own feelings at the moment from my medicine.

Almost lost an eye and half of my face and an arm trying to give my cat a bath. I have plenty of battle scars to prove it..

but in the end….I won……………….. /flop 

awkwardbirds:

BOLD WHAT’S TRUE

I am a cuddler.
I am a morning person.
I am an only child.
I am currently in my pajamas.
I am currently pregnant.
I am left handed.
I am a little shy around the opposite gender at first.
I bite my nails.
I can be paranoid at times.
I enjoy country music.
I enjoy smoothies.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I have a car.
I have/had a hard time paying attention at school.
I have a hidden talent.
I have a pet
I have a tendency to fall for the “wrong” guy/girl.
I have all my grandparents. 
I have been to another country.
I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humor.
I have or had broken a bone.
I have caller I.D. on my phone.
I have bathed someone.
I have changed a diaper.
I have changed a lot over the past year.
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
I have had major/minor surgery.
I have killed another person. 
I have had my hair cut within the last week.
I have mood swings.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I have rejected someone before.
I like the taste of blood.
I love Michael Jackson.
I love sleeping.
I love to shop. 
I own 100 CDs or more.
I own and use a library card. 
I read books for pleasure in my spare time.
I sleep a lot during the day.
I strongly dislike math.
I was born in a country other than the UK.
I watch soap operas on a regular basis.
I work at a job that I enjoy.
I would classify myself as ghetto.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I am currently wearing socks.
I am tired.
I love to paint/draw/sketch/sculpt.
I consume at least one alchoholic drink every month.


I have/had:

Graduated high school. 
Smoked cigarettes.
Rode every ride at an amusement park
Collected something really stupid.
Gone to a concert.
Helped someone.
Spun turn tables.

Watched four movies in one night.
Been dumped.
Taken a college level course.
Been in a car accident.
Been in a tornado.
Watched someone die.
Been to a funeral.
Burned yourself.
Ran a marathon.
Your parents got divorced.
Cried yourself to sleep.
Spent over $200 in one day.
Cheated on someone.
Been cheated on.
Written a 10 page letter.
Had a best friend.
Lost someone you loved.
Skipped school.
Got in trouble for something you didn’t do.
Stolen books from the library.
Been in a mental hospital.
Watched the “Harry Potter” movies.
Fired a gun.
Been in a school play.
Been fired from a job.
Taken a lie detector test.
Swam with dolphins.
Gone to Sea World.
Attempted suicide.
Written poetry.
Read more than 20 books a year.
Gone to Europe.
Loved someone you couldn’t have.
Used a coloring book over age 12.
Had surgery.
Had stitches.
Taken a taxi.
Had more than 5 online conversations going at once.
Had a hamster.
Dyed your hair.
Had something pierced. 
Got straight A’s.
Your parents sent you to a shrink.
Been handcuffed (playfully not lawfully).

My hair is naturally the color:

Light brown
Medium brown
Dark brown
Blonde
Black
Dirty blonde
Strawberry blonde/Ginger

My eyes are:

Brown
Blue
Green
Grey
Hazel (Mostly green.)
Light brown
A combination of things

I am a:

Male
Female 

People sometimes label me as ___, even though I don’t really care.
Slut
Girly 
Ugly
Nerd
Other

My longest relationship was ___. (including on and off relationships)
1 month or less
2 months
3 months
4 months
5 months
6 months
7 months 
8 months
9 months
10 months
11 months
A year+
Two years or more
I’ve never been in a real relationship.

Some of my biggest fears are ___.
Spiders/other insects
Dying
Doctor/dentist appointments
Hospitals
Needles
Disease
Being alone in the dark
Heights
Small spaces
Oceans/large bodies of water
Holes
Large animals
Small animals
Dying young
Open spaces

I have ___.
A friend with benefits
A computer in my room
A television in my room 
Good grades
My own car
Married parents 

(Source: soft-reality, via tacotits)

It still hasn’t quite registered with me that there’s a con this weekend. Like, I’m not even excited??? Probably because I don’t have a cosplay I’m excited to wear. 

I’m putting Kotetsu away until like..idk, Metrocon or this summer in general because I feel really insecure all over again and feel like I need to drop another 50 pounds or SOMETHING. That and I’d rather wear him when I go to a con with my Barnaby because man it feels lonely as fuck to wear him now. I GET SO SAD. Irrationally sad.

I will probably just end up wearing Mattie all weekend. u_u For some reason out of all my cosplays I feel the most comfortable with him. Like, I don’t have any insecurities at all with him???? Idk how that works. That and people talk to me, idk how that works either. You’d think people would be like “lol who’s that faggot” or something.

Casually considering Russia since Jessie has his coat…a very sad version of it, but it works and I can wear it. I’d just have to order a wig, which would be fine with me since I’d like a Russia coat of my own at some point. Though for some reason it feels like a terrible idea…idk, like I’d regret it or something. I just have that strange…eerie feeling.

Rambling alone with miso soup…don’t mind me. 

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Just got recruited to be N for a pokemon group for Metrocon. I8 Welp.

Time to indulge myself in celery and spending the rest of my life at a gym. 

Sometimes I like to think about my old friends. Friends from the past year or even beyond that. Whether we’re friends or not friends anymore. I still think about them, wondering what they’re up to, if they’re okay, how things are going or even if they occasionally think about me. Sometimes I want to drop them a message, just to check up on them and see how they’re doing…but sometimes I hold back. Not too sure how to explain that, but I know it’s anxiety related. I know with a good majority of these people I’m sure they don’t think too highly of me as much as they used to or see me in the same light as they did before. Then I start to think that maybe we don’t talk much because of that and they hate me now, that or it’s because I haven’t spoken to them and they think I don’t care… and then I wonder if I’m being stupid and jumping to stupid assumptions and conclusions. Which makes me a huge hypocrit because I hate it when people do that to me. 

Idk, I’m just rambling.. 

Someone come cuddle with me, I demand cuddles. >:I

Everything is casually making me cry at this point…